Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Tell me, did Venus blow your mind?

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chickenYour best friend always sticking up for you even when I know youre wrongCan you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phoneConversationThe best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me.
Had a really intense recording today, it was extremely highly stressul, so much so that when I got home, I had a nosebleed! Like, What The Hell?! *laughs* the last time I had a nosebleed was when I was like, 8 years old! Oh well. ;P

Anyhoooooooo I'm waiting to post up pics from my gig in LA recently, but I think I may need to wait for it to air on Ch5 first before I talk about it. So.. yes.. you'll all have to wait patiently for the unveiling of an amazing shot I took. ;) In the meantime, I'll treat you to a beautiful picture of Downtown LA's nighttime silhouette.

Take care an God bless to all of you, and don't worry - a much more thorough post of LA will be up very verrry soon. ;) Thank you for your messages, and continuous support. :)

Monday, October 20, 2008

Lightning Crashes

Okay so this isn't really a proper music video, you're supposed to just wait for it to load, and then enjoy it. Whilst you read my blog, of course. ;) Oh and incase you're wondering, its Lightning Crashes by LIVE. The same fellas that sang Turn My Head, and Dolphin's Cry. Which is another two amazing songs btw. Would love to see them live. Pun intended.

Feeling particularly mellow at the moment. I just came back from being with Daddy in KL, and he's feeling better (thank you, Lord). He just went for a checkup, and his blood-cholesterol level is 5.2! That's a healthy level (5.5 is normal). The pain in his chest has gone away, which is indicative of his heart healing well after the angioplasty he had earlier in the year. Still, the first year is extremely crucial, and he still has a few more checkups to go for. I'll try to be there for all of them, I told him. :)

I really am having an entirely new perspective on my priorities, am concentrating more on my family, and I really do believe that I am blessed. I'm going to share something very special with you guys.

My Por-Por (my mom's mom, that's what I called her. Hehe.. So cute right, can you imagine a little 6 year old me going, "POR-POR!!!!" whenever I came back from kindy? hehe) spent her last few years with my family. Being the youngest grandchild in the family, she doted on me alot... and I remember being very close to her, even when I was as little as 4 years old. She used to take me around town in a taxi whilst she ran her errands while mum and dad were at work, and I actually dragged her into a video arcade once, and during those days they were pretty rank, with lots of ciggie smoke, and druggies. Yeah. It was dark, and she held my hand and sat through one pac-man game with me, simply because I wanted to.

Anyway I digress. She was devastated when Kong-Kong (granddad) passed away, and became quite weak. Everything went pearshaped when mum had a minor accident and Por-Por hit her head on the front screen, and had to be admitted for about a week, I think.... I don't remember much, but I remember her getting weak, very quickly. And soon she stopped talking, and needed help walking. There was one day, I distinctively recall.

It was a bright afternoon, Por-Por had the guest room downstairs. She had finished her lunch, and tried to call for someone to help her get back to her room. I don't remember why but I was the only one there, and rushed to her side when I saw her try to get up on her own. I helped her slowly walk to her room, which must've took something like 10 minutes for her when it'd take a normal person about 8 seconds.. and halfway there she just turned and looked at me. With her deep, 73 year old eyes. (Or was she 78?)... She didn't say anything, but those eyes, rimmed with cholesterol buildup, and partially due to old age, they get a deep, dark blue almost... I think its due to the cornea just aging over black eyes giving it a misty look.

Por-Por looked at me, and I immediately knew, that she was thinking of all those times that she held my hand whilst I was walking, trying to run off somewhere, all those times she peeled grapes for me at the backseat of a cab (I didn't like grapeskin then. Heh!)... and now how fate and time has turned things around and I was there for her now. I just smiled at her and said, "Come on, Por."..And then I felt it. That I knew she would always watch over me from above.

Por-Por was an extremely pious lady, she was an extremely devout Catholic. I used to wake up for school at 6.30am when I was in Primary school, and I remember her already being up, saying the Rosary. Not just a Rosary, but the entire book, day by day prayer that came with it. That's hardcore. She did it about 5 times a day. I used to ask her why she prayed so much, and she said she prayed for us - the people she loved. And that so she would go to Heaven, and continue praying for us, and taking care of us from above.

I do believe my Por-Por is taking care of me, and that she's my Guardian Angel that keeps me safe. I can't help recalling that yellow afternoon when she looked at me, and everytime I do, I know that everything's going to be okay. That's the only explanation I have for how blessed my life has been thus far. I mean, I seriously have alot to be thankful for, things have always gone my way in ife and i've been extremely lucky. And now, I've given up a fair bit of work to make time to go home to be with my Dad, still doing some (like flying to L.A tomorrow morning to interview the cast of that certain movie). But inspite of doing less work, I'm being approached by BIGGER jobs. Its really great, and I thank God for the opportunities that come my way. And my Por. :)

Here's to my Por. (I don't have any photos on me, i'll have to scan them in!) She's an amazing lady, mother of 10 (yes, TEN) children, raised them singlehandedly whilst her husband worked the mines in Ipoh. She lived, and was loved, and is still missed dearly.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Everybody's changing.

Found this while I was surfing youtube. A little morbid, I know, but after the initial sympathy for the families in there, it struck me fast and hard that we really don't spend enough time appreciating the presence of loved ones.

Do we really have enough time on this earth to be obsessed with privial things? By trivial I mean anything that does not enrich our lives on a deeper level than just physical.

Love. We definitely don't love enough. And I don't mean just to your boyfriend/girlfriend or husband/wife fathers, mothers sisters, daughters, sons like in the video. I'm talking about friends, the busman, taxi drivers, the old auntie that serves you at McDonalds - how much love do you show them? In reference to this sort of love, I classify it as a sincere appreciation for the presence of the other person, and that you wish for nothing but happiness and general wellness towards him/her. With that comes respect, and politeness.

This isn't some bloody community service message by the way. Heh.

I'm serious; how often do we stress ourseleves out by being angry or aggitated by someone else's behaviour? A little too much, I reckon. You control your own actions, you can't say that someone else "made you do that". And you can stop the chain of destructive emotions/actions by not allowing another to affect you. Granted, its easier said than done, but its definitely worth a try.

Can you imagine if everyone woke up tomorrow, and was just...nice to one another? In that way, free-will is flawed as it allows us to have ill-will. That, in my opinion, is the crux of almost every problem involving human relations...just think of certain bloggers having cyber wars for example, and all that flaming. Just stop already, no one wins in an argument! ;P

Bottomline? Love your loved ones. Show them. You only have one life to live, and they can be gone tomorrow. Don't let a loved one go without them know just how much they mean to you. But don't stop there - spread the love, all around you. You'll be surprised; it doesn't actually run out... but quite the contrary. (Now I'm reminded of this song: *laughs!*)

REM's cover of WET WET WET's Love is All Around. Awesome right?!

With that note, I'd like to send big hugs to all of you reading this - thanks for dropping by. :) And to a certain someone out there who I was am absolute narky crazy woman to on the phone, I'm sorry. Life's too short to spend being like that, and I apologise. To my friends, I am sorry I've not spent enough time with you in the last two years, I hope the last two weeks made up for it? ;) And to the taxi driver who couldn't understand me, I'm sorry if I was aggitated because you got my destination wrong. Thanks to the lady in the lift who kept it open for me and... well. You get the picture. ;) Big love to all of you, and I hope you have a wonderful week. Remember - essentially, whether or not its a good or bad week - it is up to you. :) xoxoxo

Friday, October 10, 2008

Fav song of all time top 10


Its actually a prety sad song, got hooked on it by this trailer of Grey's Anatomy. Personally GA was a love/hate show for me, cause although I loved watching it - it used to make me get really depressed! *laughs* Yes I get quite affected by what I watch on telly - I even used to get surgery nightmares after watching Nip Tuck. Like someone operating on me without my consent, eeek!

I had my 8 days shoot yesterday, and you guys should check it out. It'll be out soon, and its me with a very hunky man. You'll just have to lookout for the cover and see. ;)

After moving around non-stop for the last two months or so, Its so nice to be able to chill in my room, not have to rush anywhere, and do my laundry and clean up my room. It was only a few weeks ago that I unpacked all my things (well, there's still some boxes but... they're tucked away safely so its fine. ;P).

I love my new place, its got a big pool, gym, sauna, two tennis courts... and its a stone's throw away from Orchard! *JOY!*

I hope everyone else has had a good week, thanks for all your emails and kind wishes to my Dad. He's changed his diet dramatically over the last two months and he's feeling a little better. :) Take care and God Bless!

Ps. Carrotcake Conversations will be out on the 6th of Nov, not the 13th!! ;)

Friday, October 3, 2008

A Thousand Miles

Vanessa Charlton sang this one, beautiful song.. I especially like the piano bits in them. ;)

Anyway, just to let you guys know, family time is going really great. My daddy has cheered up tremendously since all of us daughters have come home, infact, today's his Birthday... and I'd like to dedicate this song to my father. His daughters would happily fly a thousand miles to be with him on his special day. HAPPY 70TH BIRTHDAY DADDY! LOVE YOU SO MUCH! :)

Alrighty then, lets get on to a serious post as to what's happening these days. Haven't had one of these in a while!

1. I will be flying to L.A *again*!! This time to interview the cast and crew of an upcomming new movie. I don't think I can speak of it yet, you guys will have to catch the preview on Ch. 5, Mediacorp. ;) Will give you guys a few hints though: Its a HUGE HUGE blockbuster, it stars just ONE MAN, the movie before this was the BEGINNING of the story, and it involved cards and cars. The movie is also based on a book, written by an Englishman (many books, many of which have been produced into movies over the past few decades, starring different men as the lead). And, it was a gig that I was fankly, extremely keen to do, for many obvious reasons. Any guesses?? ;)

2. Carrotcake Conversations is out on the 13th of November! The Premier will be on the 5th of November, at a Golden Village Cinema. When I get more details I'll let you guys know about it. We can probably have a proper meet and greet session there. :) Anyone up for that?

3. I will be in the coming issue First magazine, the movie mag, in conjunction with Carrotcake Conversation's debut,

4. I will be in 8 Days again pretty soon in the coming weeks.

5. I will be in One Utama Shopping Centre, KL, for a Marie France Roadshow - Any Malaysians reading this? ;) That'll be on the 18th of Oct.

6. Doing another branding shoot for Channel 5 to be aired in time to come. :)

So my month of October is pretty much packed... Going from KL-Sing-KL-Sing-LA-Sing! I'm going to be one tired bunny at the end of the month... Also in November I have a friend's wedding to attend in Phuket! How exciting, I've never really been. Any tips for a week in Phuket? :) Not to worry, will take many nice pictures. Need to buy a new camera charger though, can't seem to find mine.. sigh. Matters not though, thanks to my sister, Lena, I still managed to get a hold of some pics. Here's a family one. :)

L-R, Clockwise: Adeline, Lena, Me, Natasha, Dad, Lucas, Mum. :) I heart all of you! xox